Happy September

[Intro]

I don't even know what glass of wine this is

I lost count

This- this not for streams or nothing

It's not for the al- it's just for me

Maybe you too

Yeah

[Verse]

At 12 we started seein' bodies

By 15 we got used to hearin' about 'em

I mean, death keep happenin', how I’m supposed to react?

I found a nigga I grew up with died on the Citizen app

What type of livin' is that?

Last time all of my friends was alive, Chance was still doing tabs

I told my nigga, "Don’t be tougher than the next"

'Cause pride and fear have niggas do things that you can’t expect

I mean, I seen niggas die young, the city do 'еm bad

Never been too tough, I know a lame nigga'll shoot your ass

Wе can’t be angry at God

The more I live, the more I know that this world is a facade

Anyway, we can go any day

The mindset of bein' paid is man-made

You live forever through how you made 'em feel

Cause the flesh can’t be saved

Well, that’s how I justify these days

I never been the one to cause a scene

Too much esteem in a whip that’s squeaky clean

Even the seats look green, fuck do you mean? (What the f-)

Look, ayy

Look in my face and see the pain up in my eyes some of the time

Should've been hate if you learned the demise of some of my guys

Learned to be safe before we learned our goodbyes

What’s fillin' a safe when you tryna survive?

Ain’t know about savings but we know what to say in situations that could help us save our lives

Every night I sleep, all I hear is sirens

So much that now they blend in with silence

Assumin' that it’s not someone tryna survive the violence

Assumin' that it’s not no one I that know that is dying

And then check my timeline or just get a call that reminds me

That all the assumin' that I was doing was actually lyin'

Thank God that I'm not overdrinkin' too

Or over eating or oversleeping, I’m overthinkin' too

I know what I did and I know what I said

Almost died a million times, but I ain’t know that God was gon' take my homies instead

I pray happiness not a luxury

I pray for peace for all of those who have love for me

I pray to not to debate if today is the day I bring guns with me

'Cause Black plight is another day and every other day looking ugly

But I know happiness on the horizon

Bad days end at midnight

Even if you lose track of the timin'

Even if the same days keep- if they keep on rewinding

I know happiness is on the horizon, I- I know happiness on the-

Damn

I know happiness on the-

Fuck

Mm, I know happiness is on the horizon

I mean, shit, it gotta be, for real

Yeah

[Outro]

Motherfuckers, we be in our twenties, like our twenty-somethings or whatever

And I think we start realizing, you feel me, like, like

All them big homies when you was like, you feel me, like

I mean, when they was twenty-five, or, you know, and you was like thirteen

Or you was eighteen or sixteen and they looked grown and shit was lost, boy

Lost as hell like

Boy, you did not have it figured out, you what I mean?

Uh, and I think it's beauty in that

It's beauty in not knowing everything, you know what I mean?

And kinda having to figure stuff out

I think that's freedom, too, you know what I'm saying?