Terraform

(Now you're listening to Alonso Beats)

I don't know, I don't know bout where you come from

Dont ask me where i am, dont worry bout the time zone

Divots in my heart, might just terraform

This ain't war bitch, what you fighting for?

Pulled my heart out and you left it by the roadside

Smoke my heart out, imma see the other side

One foot in the grave? Nah bitch, the other half way in

I'm beginning to see it wasn't only my sin

Holes in my lungs, like the fucking ozone

Divots in my heart, gonna have to terraform

Drama drama like a fucking petty stew

I ain't antisocial i just dont like you

Asking way too much, thought that wasn't like you

Life in pieces, you a thunderstorm

Tear my mind to pieces, lightning strike it hits like a tornado

And I hope I never see that Mary Sue

You were bitching when i didn't talk to you

Turn the tables call me petty when i do

When you smile it make me feel uncomfortable

On that psycho shit, its indisputable

I'm crazy too, I'd take care of you if you would have stuck round me

Im a bitch, im a loser, im a mess

If no one can love me, guess I'll just love myself

Dont need you, and i dont need no one else

You a bitch, you a loser, you a mess

Im a piece of shit, Just like all the rest

But fuck it dawg, yea you just werent the best

Spit these rhymes to get the weight of my chest

My bars spiritual

Your attempts surface value lyrics at best

Give it a rest

But still your ego big just like all the rest

Narcissistic, yea you so predictable

Im not stupid, im just unpredictable

Happiness and pain they go hand in hand up in my domain

Smiling when i think about seeing you, no im not insane

I Won't lie tho, I'm a lil bit inane

Im the left and you the right

Irrational and colorful

Im the analytical

Sometimes I read too much into the lines

Deep lines in my heart, might just terraform

Dont know how to treat me right but you thinking that im the real blight

Solar eclipse, you wipe out the light

You so right, you a star but I'm a meteorite

Came to wipe out all life on Earth

Leave the dirtiest cockroach dead in the dirt

Wishing upon the shooting stars but that can only go so far

Wondering bout where you are (are)

You the paul and im the ranks

Leave all of your worries down by the river bank

Left cause you care too much bout social rank

The Ascension, supposed to be a glorious mystery

But it's a shame to see I made you my deity

At this point im used it, guess right now its just the norm

Yea my heart is misshapen but maybe ill just terraform

Terraform, transform, what the fuck more could you ask for?

You laugh at me now, but let's see how it is when I am gone

But imma give you one more try to help me fly

And save yourself from the guilt

It'll hit you on the head like a sword hilt

Make you fucking wilt

Drowning in the silt

Mind lost at sea

Michael call me crazy

Fuck Johnny, here's me

I'm on the edge

One more "k" back and I'll be dead

Eyes red

From smoking or crying?

Doesn't matter, how many times I gotta stress it?

I'm dying

The mind can't feel the difference, emotional or physical pain?

Doubted it once, now I see that shit is real

Happiness down the drain

Drake in his feels, tryna ditch my feelings

I'm turning into a monster, I can feel it

Got these divots in my heart, gonna have to seal 'em

Terraform