Intention

I wasn't chasing my wishes last year
Im still replacing my wants with my fears
Resistance is the only thing on my mind
My emotions keep leaving me tongue tied
I'm so bored of letting myself down
Taking steps to turn my life around
These deep breaths won't sort the future out
Can't steady myself
I'm still moving
I keep moving
I want it all, I want the truth
But I don't do the things I say I'll do
I contradict my every intention
I don't think that I deserve the blessings
What will it take, to build some discipline
I can't escape the addicted state I'm in
I won't get lost in the temptation
I can't afford to sell my soul again
Lean too much on my hesitation
Still don't get the essence of patience
My bad habits wreak too much chaos
I still cling to everything that I've lost
I'm so used to holding myself back
I don't want to live a life like that
Every time that I take a step back
I steady myself
I want it all, I want the truth
But I don't do the things I say I'll do
I contradict my every intention
I don't think that I deserve the blessings
What will it take, to build some discipline
I can't escape the addicted state I'm in
Won't get lost in the temptation.
I can't afford to sell my soul again
Nostalgia is death of me
It's draining all my energy
I've forgotten how to breathe
I can't remember anything
can't slow myself down
Can't drown the pain out
When will I calm down
I just need to get myself out
I want it all, I want the truth
But I don't do the things I say I'll do
I contradict my every intention
I don't think that I deserve the blessings
What will it take, to build some discipline
I can't escape the addicted state I'm in
I won't get lost in the temptation
Cause I can't afford to sell my soul again