The Beginning of the End

[Intro]

Have you ever woken up and wondered where you are and why you're naked?

You are now listening to Headache

[Verse 1]

I used to take my breakfast off of a mirror

Now I just walk around and stare at people in the park

You think I care about what's happening to me?

Even my demons have demons

When I last saw Monica, she told me she never wanted to see or speak to me ever again in her life

She doesn't get it, nobody gets it

I can't remember the last time I got a good night's sleep

If you really think about it, life shouldn't feel this strange

If I could just figure out what the old woman wearing that salmon-pink snakeskin jacket wants from me

I'd feel a whole lot better

Doesn't she have a job?

Do I have a job?

It's not normal to sit outside someone's apartment the whole night long

But then again, what is normal?

Do you think I'm normal?

Say I'm normal

Please, for fuck's sake, please say I'm normal

[Verse 2]

I don't know what you want from me

I could never do that contemplation shit

Someone told me once that if you have more than three major concussions before the age of seven, you're fucked

I had eight

And anyway I'm not interested in knowing

I'm just tired, so tired

Something went wrong

Something went really wrong a long way back

And now I don't know, now I'm just doing this

One morning, you wake and you want to shave your head because the insects living up there have started to throw parties they aren't inviting you to

And you tell me I'm crazy?

I just want to live, I just want to feel something

Anything, anything

There's so much shit in the world

There's good, bad, mad, sad, ugly, happy

But I just love beauty

I think about my friends sometimes

Their lives, their failures

They don't know where I am

I wonder if they miss me

I miss their stories, the stuff they leave unfinished

The words they leave behind, the good they drag after them

And the destruction they create

But above all, above all, I remember the love

I remember sitting on my uncle Mario's knee

While he told me about the man he killed in the Embarcadero in August 1999

I remember the girl with pigtails in her hair asking me why I look so sad when I was supposed to be feeling happy

I remember climbing on a statue in my grandmother's garden while serious guys in suits walked around talking to each other

There was a lot of blood around back then

A lot of laughter, but a lot of blood too

And I mistook the laughter for love

I forgot the color where I came from

Now my taste is me

And sometimes it's a little too sour

The streets are so dead

How is it so easy to leave this world behind?

It feels like the world's a dream

Right up until I remember the smell of her hair blowing in the wind

You aim for my eyes, but you forgot that the heart is where all the action is

[Outro]

This one goes out to all the ghosts

I love you