Leap Year

At 19
I didn't think I'd make it to 23,
but I'm happy to be here
Welcome back from the dark side
Tried and tested by successions of hard times
Take a deep breath,
this isn't over yet
Air out the carbon monoxide
There's a voice in the back of my head and it's deafening
All my friends hate my guts, feel the weight of everything
Bearing down on my shoulders
Down on my shoulders
I see
my past self standing in front of me
It's back like a leap year
At 19
I didn't think I'd make it to 23,
but I'm happy to be here
I think I saw you in a past life
Enamored of the glow from the gas light
In a younger skin,
you dug your fingers in
I walked away on the last night
Feeling drained, looking up at the best that's ahead of me
Hold it down, power through, live to spite my enemies
You wanna see me crumble
You wanna see me crumble,
dead on arrival
but I won't
give you that satisfaction
Everything crashing over me
nowadays feels so weightless
The context is sobering
You can't take that away from me.