GINSICK

Heaven came burning down
As I saw myself dissolve through her eyes
Reverberations through her tired sighs
So, what is left? A form of nostalgia?
A heartbreak to be proud of?

At the loss of bliss
I struggle to find another way out of this
Without having to admit to myself
That I'm a piece of shit
Loveless, trying to dissect my ego
It's hopeless

She's sleeping safe through the night
So why do I feel so shit inside?

I'm so fucking sorry
I know you were hurting
I know your heart's healing
I'm glad that you got away

At the loss of bliss
I struggle to find another way out of this
Without having to admit to myself
That I'm a piece of shit
Loveless, trying to dissect
Or live in shame and die alone
It's hopeless

These lonely sheets still strangle, I'm so cold
But I refuse to poison our home
No

Oh, my darling
I see you now
In thunder clouds on the horizon
I find myself in adoration now
Eyes shining chaotic like lightning

I'm so sorry
The salt from your tears burnt straight through my skin
You'd sneak me in
And we'd pretend I'd stay in your bed when the sun came
But I'd just run again
I never deserved you
I was so young, and it felt like the world was caving in
I'm so fucking sorry, just know that I love you still