Monica Lewinskibidi

Speaking a different language
Standing six feet apart
Wanting to see you more often
But visiting is hard
At least it feels like it
Nothing I say can matter
Quiet voice on empty air
It's been months since you quit speaking
Assumed an empty stare
It's 1 am in Tokyo
The sun is up at home
Six hours from my house to yours
Seems further when I'm close
Wake up
I can't let you just lay there and sleep
Please wake up
There's still time if you'd stay up with me
Shame dripping out of my skin
Both born in July
When the weather gets nice
I'll come see you again
I'll bring you some flowers
It's 3 am in Tokyo
The sun is up at home
Six hours from my house to yours
Seems further when I'm close
It seems like I'm afraid of you
Like I try to stay away
Hate to look at what became of you
A name we had engraved
Wake up
I can't let you just lay there and sleep
Please wake up
There's still time if you'd stay up with me
Please wake up
I'll call home every day if you'd stay
Please wake up
I'll call home
There's cattails growing in the ditch where we would cross the road to skip rocks and sit by the creek
Car parts littering the front lawn of the house you raised me in back in high school
The town falls apart, there's nothing left familiar
Everything that meant anything broken down or it died
And I sat here missing everything from my city apartment
I can't let you lay there and sleep
Still time if you'd stay up with me
I won't ignore all the people I love anymore if you'd give me a second now
It's 5 am in Tokyo
And half a world away
I'm sitting in a parking lot
You're laying in your grave
And now I am afraid of you
To know that it's all done
I didn't try hard enough
To be a proper son
Please wake up