Muscle Memory

Down we go

My lovely boy

Just hold my hand

Where did you go?

You sympathise

Caught in the sails? I don't know

Can't understand

I fall in the hole

I waved you off

Land far away

Eighteen years old

Before you know

You came back angry and cold

It happens every other day

I know we haven't been the best of friends

I'm sorry

But here's an offer now that never ends

I try

Look how far my open hand extends

But it's hard

We've got lots of time to make our mends

On the holidays and at weekends

Like a pantomime ghost

On the holidays and at weekends

You can scare it off

On the holidays and at weekends

With songs and jokes

On the holidays and at weekends

Oh, I never really knew

But when the laughter fades

There is only doubt

What, all my brags and boasts

And the light at the end of the tunnel

They must have done to you

It just flickers out

No, I never meant to cast

I can't stand the sight, I can't stand the sound

A shadow so opaque

The only place I belong now

So heavy or so vast

Is in the fucking ground

So, down we go

My lovely boy

Again and again

Ah, there you are

I don't know why

I knew you couldn't be far

And I can't say when

Don't follow me

If all's forgot

Down the track

Promise me then

'Cause next time I go

Don't ever leave me again

I might not be back