champ (demo)

[Verse 1]

That hoodie was the best thing to happen to me

Like the one thing that you salvage from a house fire

When you dropped me at her house 'cause I'm just too much to deal with

I'm the last kid that should be around a lighter

I'm knocking on her door with the DS still on

She lets me in and starts to ask what's wrong

But when I confide in her, I tear apart the earth

There's somebody who has it ten times worse

Time and time again, I tried to make somе friends

And they all look so much older than mе

Maybe it's right under your nose, or just undiagnosed

But the kids said that there's something wrong with me

[Chorus]

And sometimes the smoke smells good

Leave the window open when it's freezing cold

I know

When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show

I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

[Verse 2]

Spent too many nights pinching my sides

Wondering if I'm living in a dream

Their belts all are purple and I'm still stuck in yellow

Think I'll shrink until I finally disappear

Butterflies inside me, they turn into tapeworms

And I stay awake 'till my stomach hurts

So when it's 4 AM and I can't eat anything

I'll wake up too late and get what I deserve

[Verse 3]

And I know

I told you two weeks, but it's been seventeen years

And every time I sing they close their ears

It's all in my head, it's cheesy but it's true

If I could, I'd blame it all on you

Sometimes I'd try to talk, and nothing comes out

And most of my memories aren't how they really were

I'm slipping on the line, I'm confused all the time

I'll check my mail in hopes I get deferred

[Chorus]

And sometimes the smoke smells good

Leave the window open when it's freezing cold

I know

When you left me home alone, when you left for your award show

I ditched you guys and died, laid in the snow

[Instrumental]

[Verse 4]

I have this funny dream that I moved to Bombay Beach

And I'm never seen or heard from again

Won't have to watch out for sharks swimming in the Salton Sea

But the chemicals will finish the job

And I've been performing poor, but it's so hard to be honest

She's been threatening that I get some help

Dropped out before I even started, it's barely even August

And my roommate has a room to himself