everything

(Well, the first time was cool, I thought maybe-)

I'm old enough to feel old
But young enough to die alone
And that's a scary thought to have
When you don't want to die at all

And I wanted everything I have
Take a look to the past
I have wanted so much
Just to find it doesn't last

It's just more than a habit
If you see it, you can grab it
But you know it when it hurts
It's my attempt to find the words

It's not a hymn, it's not a song
That you grew up singing in church
This one's a little bit louder
And it's a little bit worse

It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing
It's something harder to find
The thought of biting in a bullet
Shot out of sight, and out of mind

It's not just anything

Because it's love, it's sex, it's life, it's death
That lie you told under your breath
The last drag of a cigarette
It's everything, it's all it is
It's all it is

It's not a hymn, it's not a song
That you grew up singing in church
This one's a little bit louder
And it's a little bit worse

It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing
It's something harder to find
The thought of biting in a bullet
Shot out of sight, and out of mind

It's not just anything

Because it's love and sex, it's life, it's death
That lie you told under your breath
The last drag of a cigarette
It's everything, it's all it is

It's god in drag, it's time has passed
The call you got about your dad
The softest touch, a taxi cab
It's everything, it's all it is

(I'm old enough to feel old
But young enough to die alone
And that's a scary thought to have
When you don't wanna die at all
And I wanted everything I have
Take a look to the past
I had wanted so much
Just to find it doesn't last)