Addiction Kills

Fuck it, I got a lot to say, let me get started
My wife sent you a message, you act like that you ain't got it
The message was about you spendin' Christmas with your daughter
I thought you'd give a fuck about it, you're her fuckin' mama
But still you keep playin' the victim
Usin' the situation to justify your addiction
I hate to tell you that your daughter's really startin' to hate you now
What kind of junkie goes to jail for breakin' in the neighbor's house?
I swear this shit's gettin' crazy
I tried to pay for rehab on three different occasions
Don't worry now we got this, me and my wife went all in
Until you're 90 days clean don't even bother callin'
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I wish you felt how I feel
Something that's so fine could go so wrong, we know addiction kills
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I'm wonderin' how it feels
When you lose control, the truth unfolds and now we know addiction kills
I thought about it just the other day
It's been a while since you passed away
Man, what's going on?
I turned a cold shoulder to it like I didn't know
That you was poppin' them Oxycontins and was sniffin' coke
But you was smilin', wylin', laughin' like it was nothin' new
If I could turn back the hands of time, I'd have confronted you
But life don't come with a remote so I'm stuck in the moment
And if I can control it, why does it feel like I'm frozen?
In a memory, stuck here for infinity
Thinkin' 'bout the darkness and what the streets did to me
My mind's like a permanent reel that's flippin' pictures
Of friends that's no longer with us, I hope they're forgiven
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I wish you felt how I feel
Something that's so fine could go so wrong, we know addiction kills
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I'm wonderin' how it feels
When you lose control, the truth unfolds and now we know addiction kills
I know some guys that played ball and made it to the hall of fame
The same ones I know die with a needle in their vein
It really ain't the old days, the game just ain't the same
If you ain't dealt with it before then you don't feel my pain
I seen empires crumble, I seen families divide
I know a man that his whole fuckin' family died
I was raised to believe that a man doesn't cry
If that's the truth, why the fuck these tears land in my eyes?
But these men handle business so I'm handlin' mine
If you think I owe you something, well then stand in the line
Got my middle fingers up, both hands to the sky
Put my name on the line, quit slandering mine (motherfucker)
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I wish you felt how I feel
Something that's so fine could go so wrong, we know addiction kills
Some nights I just ride and stare at the sky, I'm wonderin' how it feels
When you lose control, the truth unfolds and now we know addiction kills