Faint Positive Lateral Flow

I remember walking back and forth and all around from room to room

I remember thinking to myself: where should I be

I hadn’t been there for a long time and I had no set routine

I looked in the mirror and decided not to blame myself for everything (Just for a while)

How can i grieve when I’ve yet to finish all that other grieving

I’m so behind and I’m not even sure if this is how it’s done

I remember wondering how exactly should i now be feeling

I interacted with the shadows moving up and down the walls

Maybe I’d know what i should do if i had bothered to have children

People with children make me so damn mad they act like they’re so smart

How can i grieve when I’ve yet to finish all that other grieving

I’m so behind and I’m not even sure if this is how it’s done

What if I’ve been doing it all wrong like I’ve been told since the beginning

I had just begun to get used to the world we had and now it’s gone