You'd Be Lying

Saturday I was losing sleep

Thinking about the way you held me on New Year’s Eve

Like you wanted me for the first time

In a long time

I had closed my eyes for so long

Cause I’d rather live a lie than be alone

But I felt lonelier with you than I’ve ever been

Oh, in this portrait of the end

I’m kissing someone else outside a bar against my car

Oh, maybe it’s too soon

But I don’t wanna think of you

Just wanna be touched till you feel far

You’d be lying if you said you tried, oooh

I’ve heard that I should find someone

Who loves me more than I love them

But all I want is what I can’t have

Spent years chasing after you

Falling in love with potential

Like I always do

But I know now people never change

Oh, I’m going out like every night

Just to get you off my mind

Cause I miss our life

Oh, and when I think of what that means

It’s not that I want everything

But the good parts still make me cry

And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh

And you’d be lying if you said you tried, oh

You said you did the best you could

It never felt like much but now it’s good

Cause I don’t have to say we’re alright

And I don’t have to lie, I know I tried

I don’t have to lie, I know I tried