white lies

Lines are growing thin
I'm no longer sleeping in
The shirt you met me in
I don't know if we don't talk
Because I'm in the city
Pretending that I'm busy

Meant to come back home
Yesterday, but I delayed
The train to stay alone
Still, went to the station
To imagine you in Euston
Smiling like you used to

And who knows what I'd say
If you were real today?

Sometimes, I tell white lies
Like, "I will always want you
No matter the rocks above you"
And yes, sometimes, I tell white lies
Like, "I don't wanna leave you
I don't want a life without you"
But the truth is maybe

I do time to time
Picture someone giving me
The version of my life
I imagined first with you
So long before you lost us
God knows that we lost us

And who knows what that would've looked like
A world where you didn't keep changing your mind?

And, sometimes, I tell white lies
Like, "I will always want you
No matter the rocks above you"
Oh, sometimes, I tell white lies
Like, "I'm gonna up and leave you
And I want a life without you"
But the truth is maybe I don't