Stateside

I watched the bonds we made give way on your front porch that May
You begged me to go, but I think that I should stay
I wanna know how much you hate me
Before I go across the country, before I go across the country

So act like you never cared about a spark that wasn't there
But don't forget how hard you tried to let me down
But I wouldn't break free
I never wanted to be the weight that you buried

I'm stuck stateside with you in my head
I couldn't even get away to New England
So next time that you're on your kitchen floor
Remember me and what we used to be
And how I couldn't care less anymore

So act like you never cared about a spark that wasn't there
But don't forget how hard you tried to let me down
But I wouldn't break free
I never wanted to be the weight that you buried

I'll hold on to everything you've tried to take
'Cause I'm gone, I'm the smile you couldn't fake
I'll hold on to everything you've tried to take
'Cause I'm gone, I'm the smile you couldn't fake
Maybe I'll end up back in your bed
Or in a makeshift one in the back of my van

I've learned to not rule out anything when it comes to you and me, except for consistency
And half of what mattered then won't matter anymore
And at that time I'll be in another state, on another floor
In another state, on another floor