Denial

I refuse to believe this is what's left for me

If this is real, is this the fucking reckoning?
Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me
We die to feel alive
My eyes slowly closing, but I am spinning on the inside

We wanna survive by never feeling our pain
Refuse to acknowledge reality and push it away
Does anyone have the strength to look inside our head?
The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead
The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead

What a fucking shame
But I just gotta know
How long does it burn?
Is there any chance I could make it out of here?
How long will it hurt?
I refuse to believe this is what's happening

Over and over again
This is the time that I am searching for truth
Since jumped in front of my bullet I've hid away from the news
And I loved you 'til death even though some won't agree
So I buried you in the back, so you're closer to me

I am the one you buried deep down inside
There is nowhere to run and there is nowhere to hide
Take a look in the mirror
To see what you have become (see what you have become)
It's a downward spiral
No chance of denial
You'll never escape
From what you have done

Struggle to feel alive

If this is real, is this the fucking reckoning?
Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me
We die to feel alive
My eyes slowly closing, but I am spinning on the inside

Spinning in the inside
As what is left of me
Bludgeoned by clarity
My eyes are burning red
I can't believe that you're dead
(I can't believe that you're dead)