Depression

Disassociate from my mind that plagues my every day
Constantly changing ongoing thoughts to find my happy place
I refuse to make amends
I'm done with this torture and I'm begging for all the pain to end
The price of death has me stuck
Trying to run from this grave that I've dug
I never once pictured God above
Drowning in fear feeling stuck in this rut

Repent to the God that never answered shit
We're so fucking blind why does no one seem to question it
I'm so sick of everyone asking me about a situation of what is lеft of me
Give it to me straight am I thе root of the problem
I can't seem to find my way out of
Misanthropic mindsets are embedded inside of me
I need to get a handle on my psyche

(I can't feel my heart beat)
(Feeling like I struggle to know who)

I'm begging for escape

Just want to feel alive

Disassociate from my mind that plagues my every day
Constantly changing ongoing thoughts to find my happy place
I refuse to make amends
I'm done with this torture and I'm begging for all the pain to end
The price of death has me stuck
Trying to run from this grave that I've dug
I never once pictured God above
Drowning in fear feeling stuck in this rut

Take whatever is left of me
Let me down so the cycle repeats

Since the start of the day there was no evil to spread
I never wanted to let you see the words that I say
I know I never will, trying to feel okay
I wasn't done with my actions, I'm sentenced to decay