Toxin Dodger

I know I run my mouth
No matter what I say
I am the styrofoam
I'll never go away

I never seem to win
I'm losing every day
So I'll become the problem
That I refuse to change

I'm standing on the stage
I'm shaking in my boots
And when I'm at the gates
Only time I'll tell the truth

At least as of yet
No blood is on the bills
That feeling in my tummy
The guilty river fills

And if you really want to stop me
You're gonna have to come and kill me
There is no love that fills me
Only the things that thrill me
And if you really want to stop me
You're gonna have to come and kill me
I have no thoughts I'm guilt free
You're gonna have to come and kill me

The belly
The beast
The dog on the leash
I am truly committed
To the end that I see
The moment
I thought it
I just could not believe
My soul in this body like an arm in a sleeve
I left myself back
At that gas station
Who holds my form now
And this new fixation

Cut me off
Take the loss
Make my potion double toxed
Store my alter in a box
Sip detergent on the rocks
All my bones and skin and teeth
And face and muscle memories
Too vibrant for the flesh I am
I'll tear myself to shreds again

Tear myself
To shreds
Lying in
My bed
The wells drained
In my head
Dodging all
The toxins

Who knew I could be that Easter bunny
I leave a trail of my eggs then I takeoff running
But there won't be a single pastel
Just the feeling hope is fading in a world that is hell

(They said you could have saved him
but you know what I say? That's in god's hands)

And if you really want to stop me
You're gonna have to come and kill me
There is no love that fills me
Only the things that thrill me
And if you really want to stop me
You're gonna have to come and kill me
I have no thoughts I'm guilt free
You're gonna have to come and kill me