The List

Oh I, have a hobby of pickin' myself apart
Leavin' people I love waitin' in the dark
And sometimes when I want to cry, I laugh
It's kind of funny
Oh and, this October I went fallin' off the edge
All of London must have heard the things I said
Put your hand up if I let you down again, hmm
There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doin' but I do 'em
It's a pattern that I got
I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop findin' things that need changin'
Need to stop gettin' drunk, to avoid this situation
I need to stop, lettin' myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now
Oh I, I've got an attic full of damage in my mind
I box it up, say I'll deal with it another night
And I have a problem lookin' people in the eye
Isn't that funny?
There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doin' but I do 'em
It's a pattern that I've got
I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop findin' things that need changin'
Need to stop gettin' drunk to avoid this situation
I need to stop, lettin' myself down
I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love, instead of runnin' and hiding
I should stop gettin' drunk and showin' up uninvited
I need to stop, lettin' myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
Oh I'm a master at dancin' around the point
I know I call you, but I hate the sound of my own voice
So can you talk? You know I'm stackin' up
Until the night I'm not enough
And you're just someone else I disappoint
I need to stop my excuses and put my feelings in order
Need to look in the mirror and stand a little bit taller
Need to stop gettin' drunk, as a reason to call you
I need to stop, lettin' myself down
Oh, I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now