Halfway To Whole

[Verse 1]

There's that feeling

I won't be here for long

'Cause there just ain't no fixing

Everything that's wrong

And there's no going

No, there's no going home

'Cause home's been forgotten

For some time spent alone

And my loved ones

They don't call me at all

But they say that they love me

So I tighten my jaw

[Refrain]

And I fall

Back into the weeds

I don't think that it's selfish

For me to be me

[Verse 2]

But my music

It don't heal me no more

It got twisted and mangled

For some bills on the board

And my lover

Well, I left her alone

I got lost in my purpose

Then my purpose went cold

I'm a failure

I'm a fucking black hole

I bought into a liar

And my future got sold

[Refrain]

Now I'm tired

Of thorns in my side

I don't wanna be here

I don't wanna die

[Pre-Chorus]

But it's getting old

Oh, I'm getting old

[Chorus]

Now I'm stuck on the shoulder

And not even halfway to home

And I'm halfway to Kansas

And not even halfway to whole

So I summon my demons

'Cause there's no one here I know

And I'm halfway to dying

And not even halfway to whole