The Abandoned

Staring at the wall,
I never thought this would be so hard.
How could have I been so close and never known you?
I never knew, I never knew you at all!
You will always be my father but I hope you know,
It's your fault and I'll never know what that means.
You left a void that never could be replaced.
I am dying inside but you will never see!
I always had hoped that you did not want it this way,
But no matter how hard I try you always pushed away.
You said you loved me but
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?
You know I would let you in but you threw everything away.
So tell me what did you get from all of these years of pain?
You have no clue what I've been through,
But I guess that you wanted it that way!
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?
If you would've been there,
If you would've stuck around.
If you would've been there when I needed you,
You would've been
You would've been so proud!
How was I supposed to know
(How was I supposed to know)
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?