treading water

And, oh, what a life to live
When you're dying for someone to give
To give you their love
To give you their love
Lie awake, stargazing, I won't sleep 'til morning
Echoes of your words saying, "Don't write a song for me"
Everything is wrong in me, raised under wings of demons
And even if God's with me, without you I have no reason
This'll be the last time you hear me say sorry
That'll be the last tear you waste on me crying
I broke this home, and just like my father, I'll die all alone
And, oh, what a life to live
When you're dying for someone to give
To give you their love
To give you their love
I'm looking at the kids' faces
Sitting in the driveway while I pack up suitcases
I just ruined their holiday, and lies don't die, they grow
And everything you try to hide eventually shows
The beast killed the beauty, the last petal fell from the rose
And I loved you truly, that's why it's hard to let it go
I broke this home, but I'll change for our daughter, so she's not alone
Oh, what a life to live
When you're dying for someone to give
To give you their love, to give you their love
And, oh, what a life to live (oh, what a life to live)
When you're dying for someone to give (when you're dying)
To give you their love (to give you their love)
To give you their love (oh)
I wrote this in Room Three, spending Christmas in rehabilitation
I got no phone, just a cell that I'm trapped in while my home's vacant
I'm an inpatient, but I lost patience
I just broke somethin', but I'm fixated
On the gossip that I know is happening
While I'm just being left out of the conversation
It's a complicated relationship, that's nobody's business
But I'm in this business, face it, I've been hiding from the ideation
That the public has been ruinin' my reputation
And it's crazy, seeing quotations from a source that somebody curated
'Cause for me, y'all can feel pure hatred, but just keep our baby out this situation
It's a long road to redemption, and a shorter one to damnation
I know which one is my destination
But the journey doesn't come without the frustrations
Like it doesn't come without the temptations
And failure can lead to an elevation
'Cause sometimes you gotta see what's waiting on the other side
And know your soul's worth saving
And, oh, what a life to live
When you're dying for someone to give
To give you their love
To give you their love