i know you hate me

I've been fighting with thoughts and temptations
I'm not good at holding conversations
Bae bear with me, baby, please just be patient
Want you here, I don't want my bed vacant
Every night, we been fightin' and fuckin' and lovin'
I don't know if I hate this shit or love it
Don't wanna keep goin' but don't wanna cut it
In a predicament but won't discuss it, no

You say you love me
But I know you hate me
Don't ever wan' face me
You know what I'm facin'
I'm not one for chasin'
You're never explainin'
I'm gone on the weekends
I'm off the deep end
Nothing ever makes sense
Watch you walk out my life
And it ain't been the same since
Put it in the past tense
I was playing the offense
But now I'm on defence

Never said you were the one
That was crazy
I should've had better judgement, I was lazy
Now I sit and recollect while I'm on vacay
I should've known that you were trouble
When you made me say
That I love you so much
I don't want you to leave
And that you were the one
That was pulling my strings
And then you went and
Ripped my heart up into pieces
I never thought it would reach this

You say you love me
But I know you hate me
Don't ever wan' face me
You know what I'm facin'
I'm not one for chasin'
You're never explainin'
I'm gone on the weekends
I'm off the deep end
Nothing ever makes sense
Watch you walk out my life
And it ain't been the same since
Put it in the past tense
I was playing the offense
But now I'm on defence

And once you leave
There's no comin' back
I don't wanna see your face
And on top of that
I don't want you in my phone
No, I'm not textin' back
I know that no matter what you do
That you'll come running back
And don't try to backtrack
On shit that you said
'Cause to me in my head
You're already dead
So I'm gonna let you rest in peace, uh
Hopefully this will end the misery