What If...

[Verse 1: Brendan Lukens]

When I was "younger", I thought of caring

As a reason for some to praise me, in envy

“So humble and kind”; “No better person”

Now that I’m "older", I’ve seen what I’ve been

Ruthless, ungrateful, always trying to turn up tracks

Be it about me or you

[Bridge 1: Brendan Lukens]

Seeking out the faithful in me

With tricks of trust and gluttony

I don’t wanna wait for anyone

[Verse 2: Brendan Lukens]

When I was younger, I thought of deep space

Pick me up swiftly, carry me away

Drop me off willing—lightyears, long gone

Never again seeing those who I loved

It’s not about me this time, there I go lying again

Please save my soul, I don’t know what I’m doing anymore

Seeking out the faithful in me with singles and a pen

Is it possible I’m overthinking this?

[Chorus: Brendan Lukens]

It’s not what I’m not

It’s what I believe in

It’s not what I’ve got

It’s my peace of mind

Too early to see if I’m still in the past

Too hopeful to be wasted time

It’s not what I’m not

It’s what I believe in

It’s not what I’ve got

It’s my peace of mind

Too early to see if I’ll be

[Bridge 2: Brendan Lukens]

Seeking out the fraud in me

With compassion and honesty, I’ll wait