Timebomb

Seconds are left on the countdown
Panic attack, the next normal in bloom
I let you go to get a grip on myself
But will you welcome me back as someone else?

All my life I've been a timebomb (now time is running out)
Juxtapose me with my past-self (a doubt I can't surmount)
It's survival of the restless (survival of the restless)
So split the difference between us

Looking back on the things that I've done
I should've known that I've always had more than enough
If tonight I fall asleep for the last time
I wanna be proud of the things that I've done right

If I could learn how to hold my head up
Maybe life wouldn't seem like it's passing me by
If I could give myself what I give to you
Then maybe I'd find strength to hold on to

Oh, consumed by what I can't undo
Here we go again
Beyond the barricade, rip the curtain away
And you'll see the mess I've made
Beyond the barricade, rip the flesh away
And you'll see it's me you saved

If I could learn how to hold my head up
Maybe life wouldn't seem like it's passing me by
If I could give myself what I give to you
Then maybe I'd find strength to hold on to
If I could learn how to hold my head up
Maybe life wouldn't seem like it's passing me by
If I could give myself what I give to you
Then maybe I'd find faith to hold on to

Beyond the barricade, rip the flesh away
And you'll see the mess I've made
Beyond the barricade, wash the fear away
And you'll see it's me you saved
Beyond the barricade, we wash the fear away
And you'll see it's me you saved

If I could learn how to hold my head up
Maybe life wouldn't seem like it's passing me by
If I could give myself what I give to you
Then maybe I'd find strength to hold on to
If I could learn how to hold my head up
Maybe life wouldn't seem like it's passing me by
If I could give myself what I give to you
Then maybe I'd find faith to hold on, oh