Gone

Seems, I've been saying
Bring me closer to God or closer to Mars
I don't care
Who's testing me in this fire
I've got to get out of here
Day 22
Being on the train alone
Can't remember which way's home
No conductor on this ride
Baby, no access to a phone
I go wherever the track goes
The wind picked up it got cold
Peeking out from the window, it's misty, it's official
I'm starting to doubt my heavy lack of a goal
Scared that the weather might want to swallow me whole
My thoughts are a mess, I've got to clean up the floor
Maybe I love her, but then maybe I don't
I lose all of my senses when she gets me alone
But, then I feel cruel soon as I walk out the door
This isn't healthy, I keep telling her all
But, she's stubborn as hell, she won't leave it alone (she won't leave it alone)
What I gotta do, to get you to let me go (what I gotta do, to get you to let me go)
I don't deserve this kind of love anymore (I don't deserve this kind of love anymore)
Projecting
Everything that I am
A bad girl
Sad girl
Hiding in the open world
Roads don't care
If I'm bare
And, I think I messed up
Love's lost, gone and you were my heaven
I just run but you're my heaven
She's a dream, she's a saint
She's a lover, she's a caregiver too
How can I measure up to her?
Now, I'm out here like a mule ooh
I'm so ashamed
I'm to blame for
Anything, she goes through
Every burden that she carries alone
Please stop the train (stop the train)
I'm to blame for
Anyone that's laughed at her
Her easy trust in me keeps backfiring, ohh
I'm so afraid (so afraid)
That the day will end and I won't see you
That my story ends abruptly, alone
Love's lost, gone and you were my heaven
I just run but you're my heaven
I quit visiting your place
I would stand out there for days
I have grown into disgrace
Maybe, I'll be back someday
Once, I'm strong enough to stay