Part I
[Verse 1]
The freshness of the air feels foriegn to my aching heart
The sunlight burns the layers I’ve built up within this paper cup
Damn straight, I haven’t earned that much. There’s nothing I can take
Police are roving in my veins, a venom coursing, yearning hatred
[Pre-Chorus]
It’s second nature now to think myself a traitor
To myself, to all I’ve ever burdened with my rotting visage
I can’t breathe, the weight of all I’ve disappointed crushes me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me
[Chorus]
Don’t care, you could be smiling if you wanted to
You could be driving, could be flying if you wanted to
You hear that noise? You hear that screaming? That’s your voice
Trapped inside, you could take it out to cry if you wanted to
Why fight? I’d like to think I’m on my side
But nothing that I’ve thought today has let me think I’m right
You hear that sound? Or is your coursing blood too loud?
Will your better sense come out or will you be alone tonight
[Verse 2]
Don’t microwave your milk too long, it browns and bubbles over
Don’t let anyone see into you, don’t let them see your need
I burned a forest down for this, I must have something to show for it
But alas, the stars don’t feel like smiling upon me
[Pre-Chorus]
It’s second nature now to think myself a traitor
To myself, to all I’ve ever burdened with my rotting visage
I can’t breathe, the weight of all I’ve disappointed crushes me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me
[Chorus]
Don’t care, you could be smiling if you wanted to
You could be driving, could be flying if you wanted to
You hear that noise? You hear that screaming? That’s your voice
Trapped inside, you could take it out to cry if you wanted to
Why fight? I’d like to think I’m on my side
But nothing that I’ve thought today has let me think I’m right
You hear that sound? Or is your coursing blood too loud?
Will your better sense come out or will you stay alone tonight
[Pre-Chorus]
It’s second nature now to think myself a traitor
To myself, to all I’ve ever burdened with my rotting visage
I can’t breathe, the weight of all I’ve disappointed crushes me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me
[Chorus]
Don’t care, you could be smiling if you wanted to
You could be driving, could be flying if you wanted to
You hear that noise? You hear that screaming? That’s your voice
Trapped inside, you could take it out to cry if you wanted to
Why fight? I’d like to think I’m on my side
But nothing that I’ve thought today has let me think I’m right
You hear that sound? Or is your coursing blood too loud?
Will your better sense come out or will you stay alone tonight
Part II
[Verse 3]
There’s a pin-light shining out in the mountains
Can’t you see?
It flutters in and out of vision
In a hue I can’t quite place
There’s a humming in the air here
Listen close
It’s like a warmth spreading through me
Through the canyons of my mind
The flowers seem so vivid way out there
Beyond regret
I see a gradient from greyscale
Leading into rainbow’s end
The land of milk and honey is in reach
It seems so close
I only need to touch the grass
And I’ll be one of them
[Break]
I'm in the office room for the first time
I am-, I am whispering 'cause Daisy is-, well, she is not asleep downstairs, she's mumbling to herself
But I'm in the office room for the first time, I got some revision to do and some homework to do
So I've sat on the desk
So, first day, I'll let you know how I get mine
Also here's a fun thing to say I absolutely love, like, learning
I've learned- I've released, what I'm wanting, I'm learning and I'm sitting down, I improve
I didn't even need to get this one, I just did it cause I want to be an absolute teacher's pet
Put my laptop and then right up I only got 400 words we gotta do, which isn't a lot
This actually helps, 'cause you gotta condense it from the lesson [?] [?] saying
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Have to do the revision over the frameworks
We [boiling?] stuff!
I'm really excited about it, and Daisy's right going back to sleep, she's downstairs (ssst)
And Emily's paintings, I'm doing her homework
Look at it, look at this everyone and
[Refrain]
Oh God I swear, don’t fail me now
The light is here
I can’t forget what it feels like
Just to act as I belong
Goddamnit I can’t take this anymore
I’m stepping out
I only hope that the sunlight hasn’t
Left while I was gone
Oh God I swear, don’t let me down
You’re all I have
I can’t forget what it feels like
To be loved and taken in
I used to love the scent of rainfall in the dawn
The touch of sun
I only hope there’s something left here
Something left for me to hold
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