Fake Smiles 3

Yeah, I'm still numb to the pain
Still take these drugs for the pain
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain
You said you were done with the games
You just don't love me the same
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain (I just can't run from the pain)
(Feel me?)

I don't wanna lose myself in you (you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (I don't wanna lose myself in you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you
I've been feelin' like a mistake now
I don't know what's real or what's fake now
Like, "How many drugs do it take now to feel nothin'?
'Cause I'm still scared to break down, I can't break down, I can't show my pain
Sometimes I just wanna blow my brains
Wanna go out like Kurt Cobain
I been really tryin' not to go insane

I fuckin' hope it changes but I'm dead inside
Demons in my head that I let inside
I don't know how they always get inside
Flowers don't grow when you let 'em die
So don't let us die, I need somethin' real
Holdin' on but can't fuckin' feel
You know I've been stuck in my ways, I'm still
Drinkin' daily, I've been takin' pills
I just hate to feel, any fuckin' thing

They will never know all the shit I seen
They will never know all the pain it brings
I loved you 'til I hated me, I fuckin' hated me
I hated everyone
Everyone fake when it's said and done
I can't love so I rather run
I can't live without bein' numb, without bein' numb

Fuck everyone
Everyone fake when it's said and done
I can't love so I rather run
And I can't live without bein' numb, without bein' numb
And I'm still

Yeah, I'm still numb to the pain
Still take these drugs for the pain
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain
You said you were done with the games
You just don't love me the same
I just can't run from the pain
I just can't run from the pain (I just can't run from the pain)
(Feel me?)

I don't wanna lose myself in you (you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (I don't wanna lose myself in you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you (you)
Yeah
I don't wanna lose myself in you