Lullaby

All the times I have laid in your lie
When your love kept safe through the night
All the time I was sure you were mine
And before time demands our goodbye
Can you sing me a last lullaby?

It's been a while since I last dreamt
Barely remember what it's like to dream
Been finding it hard to get to sleep
Too stressed and there ain't anyone to sing a lullaby to me
Pretend shit doesn't get to me
And I suffer in silence
When I'm hurting
A man's problems are his own
And it's my burden
Tossing and turning trying to get to sleep
But I find it hard to switch off when my mind's working
I ponder on things I ponder on, off the rails
My train of thought's wandering
Sick of pretending to be so happy
All the while my anxiety's away at me
My skin crawls
I look up to the sky and it falls
The walls close in and it's as if all the good in my life
Disappears in an instant
Everything is just so distant
So sing the ones who I love
The ones who love me
But I don't wanna tell them how I feel in case they judge me
It's just me
Wish I could let somebody in but I ain't ever been too trusting
All the times I have laid in your lie
When your love kept me safe through the night
All the time I was sure you were mine
And before time demands our goodbye
Can you sing me a last lullaby?
Woah, yeah
(Oh oh oh oh x2)
Oh yeah
(Oh oh oh oh x2)
Oh woah
I barely had any sleep when I get up
Sick of all these nightmares and these night terrors
Like it's only when I'm in heaven that I sleep better
Might sleep better when I get up, I'm weak
It just makes my day harder
I wonder if it would have been any different if I had a father that I knew
Could it have helped shaped the way that I grew?
But the point of things I never have went from
Being a reason for the things that I do
To just being an excuse that I'd use
I've gotta take responsibility for the things I do
Try something other than negativity for my fuel
But I feed off even when I don't seem bothered I hide everything
That's going on inside
I guess it's been a while since I've been honest, I need help
But I deny and even lie to myself like I'm fine
All the times I have laid in your lie
When your love kept me safe through the night
All the time I was sure you were mine
And before time demands our goodbye
Can you sing me a last lullaby?
I just wish someone would tell me it will be okay
But pessimism leeds me to believe that it won't
To see even a glimmer of hope in the darkness is hard
And depression is a slippery slope
I don't wanna do what my dad did with a rope, though
So I carry on even though it's hard to
The only thing that's definite is death
And things always change as long as you give them a chance to
All the times I have laid in your lie
When your love kept me safe through the night
All the time I was sure you were mine
And before time demands our goodbye
Can you sing me a last lullaby?
Oh yeah
(Oh oh oh oh x3) (can you sing me a last lullaby?)
Oh woah, oh yeah
(Oh oh oh oh x3)
Oh woah
All the times I have laid in your lie
When your love kept me safe through the night
All the time I was sure you were mine
And before time demands our goodbye
Will you sing me a last lullaby?