You Good ?

I've been living reckless
I've been breaking bad
I've been sleeping with men old enough to be my dad
I know that they probably hate when I talk like this
But they know I can't afford a therapist
So they'll humor me
Until they fall asleep

And I've been drinking heavy which I can't afford
Bank account empty don't wanna check my credit score
Chasing equity has only left me in debt more
Don't want to be American anymore
Save for the alcohol
I'll drink it all

Because I gained back those forty pounds again
Because I'm a lazy slob with zero fucking discipline
All the work I put in last winter turned to shit
I don't know why I even bother trying
So I'll scream until I feel some semblance of control
Until televangelists or politics save my soul
So when pigs fly and when we reach our carbon goal
I don't want to worry if my cousins will grow old
Lord knows I don't know

There's a thin blue line that we won't ever get to cross
Turtles all the way down, pigs at the top
I don't wanna hold breath at a traffic stop
So I'll stay inside and drink and eat until I pop
Then send a risky text
And see whose bed is next