Rot

Why disguise my bad intentions?
I've got nothing to hide
Except the tendency to separate the part of me
That's feelin' too desperate to die
Maybe I've been dreaming in lo-fi
Like I just can't stop
Maybe I've been rotting on the inside
All alone with my negative thoughts, they're

Crawling outta the hole inside of me
Try to kill 'em before I come undone
I can tell they're on to me
I can feel it in my blood
Spilling out of the hole inside of me
Try to fill it before I come undone
But it's just a part of me
I can't get away from

And now I'm back in the thick of it
Telling everyone near
"Oh my God, like, the grind is killing me"
Practice that speech in the mirror, like
"I wanna thank the academy"
Well isn't it great?
I'm doing something productive with my self destruction
It's the one thing keeping me sane
How's that for your glass half full?
It's not even my best trait

Crawling outta the hole inside of me
Try to kill 'em before I come undone
I can tell they're on to me
I can feel it in my blood
Spilling out of the hole inside of me
Try to fill it before I come undone
But it's just a part of me
That I can't get away from

The more I'm reckless
The less I break
The more I care about money
The less I make
The less I care about everything
The better it goes
And the better it gets
The more I lose control

And when I've lost it all
I self-sabotage
But it only serves
To legitimize my flaws
Like I recall them at all, when they're

Crawling outta the hole inside of me
Try to kill 'em before I come undone
I can tell, I can tell they're on to me
I can feel, I can feel it in my blood
Spilling out of the hole inside of me
Try to fill it before I come undone
But it's just another part of me
I can't stop from

Crawling outta the hole (crawling outta the hole)
From crawling outta the hole inside of me
Spilling out of the hole (spilling out of the hole)
From spilling out of the hole inside of me
Crawling outta the hole (crawling outta the hole)
From crawling outta the hole inside of me
Spilling out of the hole (spilling out of the hole)
From spilling out of the hole inside of me