Summit, Pt. 1

We all got some fuckin' mountains of our own
Shoutin' at the ground that's down below
Shoes plowin' through the snow where all the flowers used to grow
In my surroundings, I'm a speck somehow amounting to the whole
And in these moments, I've never felt both so small and larger than life
Thinking to myself, "just don't fall from the largest of heights"
And I've been lookin' at the summit
They say we're halfway there, I think we're halfway from it
It's been the longest run, path has been a rocky one
Happy I got my foot out the door, but it was a revolvin' one
Imposter syndrome kickin' in, my thoughts don't wanna stand still
Thinkin', "how I am a boring white man who has fuckin' stans still
While my whole generation's fuckin' lonely and depressed
With a world that's gettin' colder and repressed?"
Like we're supposed to reach this quota for success
Without sayin' a fuckin' word (yeah)
If life's a test, it doesn't seem like it's graded on a fuckin' curve
So now I'm movin' on, move along, tied up and my shoes are on
Got more conspiracies for how I did it than fuckin' QAnon
And look at who I'm provin' wrong, me and my boulder grew a bond
They still gon' shamefully listen pretentiously on my newest song
And I'll never please everyone, had to come to terms with that
Feelin' like I'm never done, I'm still tryna work on that
'Cause I'm still lookin' at the summit
They say we're halfway there, I think we halfway from it
Yeah, and you were there for me (mm-hmm)
When I swallowed it, thank God that it was you that shared the key
And I will cherish all that time way more than you could ever see
Wasn't fair how I relied on how much you accepted me
'Cause I know you got mountains of your own I gotta help you climb
And I feel guilty I spent all this time tryna work through mine
Thinkin' about how perfect it gets
Arguin' 'bout whether TikTokers deserve the success
This time, you deserve it the best
And I know these days just aren't those days
But honestly, "These Days" still hits on most days
'Cause I love you, but I see it in a different view
When you're away, the memories play in a different hue
To convince me, I fell in love with a different you
But no matter how long distance, I know that shit just isn't true
Because we're, we're still lookin' for the summit, uh
They say we're halfway there, I think we're halfway from it
When the ambient wind was like deafening applause
Right in plain sight
You and I
When the camera tries to focus
For so long, you miss the moment
It's too bright
Little light
And we'll climb towards the peak in the coldest of nights
I'll hold you tight
You and I