Sisyphus

Walked up the hill

Don't look down, you'll be there soon
And I love you still
Everything feels better when surrounded by the space
I need to fill

And I know
Everything feels better when I go

I been so melodramatic with you on this climb
Can't wait to feel shitty and tell you about it another time
All of the blisterin' mends in a callus
Even our bickerin' getting nostalgic
All of those little things meld into mountains in my mind, uh
August came by, saw you say "Bye", wanna stay by your side
What the fuck do you say when you know
Life cannot be the same but you try and try?
If those footsteps remainеd after time went by, somеthing expirin'
I guess them butterflies in my stomach
Have been fuckin' retirin', uh (yeah)

And I love you when I'm back on the climb
You're only with me in the back of my mind now
It's a cycle, it's a path I can't find, uh
Sisyphus grimace, it's the rock and roll, vulnerable
Maybe it's my fate and it's all my fault
And I know
You got a mountain of your own (yeah)

Wish it wouldn't feel so broken to me
Tried to take the edge off, but that only brought it closer to me, uh
And I just wanna live in a mo'fuckin' log cabin
In a place where you never have to call back
Never have to log back in
I've been backlogged in black fog
I fall back in, dreamin' of times it wasn't all madness
I just can't mimic it, though
I been in Sisyphus mode, lookin' up the path of a tall mountain
And I keep getting stuck in these potholes
Maybe I should just let the rock roll
I've been so close to the peak, I know
But I'm tryna stay away from the drop, though
So I don't

They only love me when I'm back on the climb (yeah)
You're only with me in the back of my mind now
It's a cycle, it's a path I can't find, uh
Sisyphus grimace, it's the rock and roll, vulnerable
Maybe it's my fate and it's all my fault
And I know
You got a mountain of your own (yeah)

Watch your step
Lifting slow
Giving no
Imprint in the snow
And I love you to pieces
'Til that's all we're left with (yeah)
It's all we're left with
In the end (yeah)

And sometimes, I wanna disappear
Been a shitty-ass time and a shitty-ass year
But somehow, I'ma get me past here

Everything feels better when I go