59th & Bethany

[Intro]

Yeah

Sometimes I just, you know, sit back and reflect about the times when I was on 59th and Bethany when everything was bad

Now look at me now, I'm like, "Damn"

[Verse]

For three months straight I was sleeping on an air mattress

I was assed out like my pants saggin'

Doing bad but if you ask me I'm doing fantastic

Once I got bands they try hoppin' on the bandwagon

Behind on all my bills 'cause I ain't think ahead

Relationship won't goin' nowhere, I was unprepared

Cyclops, when she fucked her ex man, had me seein' red

She hear him, she hear me, we [?]

Womеn I treated like go-tos arе old news

Like old shoes, when I step, I make souls move

Tunnel vision, I vent about what I go through

So don't compare me to old dude, nah, nah

See, y'all was hot for a second, y'all got a microwave

The difference between me and them is night and day

Waited a long time for my turn, I had to write of way

The ones I know love me got my back like a license plate

Was a lowlife, now I'm living in a higher place

You don't want smoke like a fireplace

I was carryin' arms, I was throwin' my life away

This the type of pain bring tears you can't wipe away

You gain better vision when you livin' in darkness

Now the ball is in my court and my shootin' is flawless

Like Obama work done but I'm still in the office

Reminiscin' 'bout them times that I lived in apartment

222, 59th and Bethany home

Datin' somebody who thought she could never be wrong

Ten Commandments, what she said is settin' in stone

I woulda never made it if I had left her alone

I woulda never started rapping in the car if she ain't cheat

I woulda never seen me get a million views in like a week

I woulda never made a name for myself and became unique

I woulda never opened my eyes fully, I woulda peaked

I couldn't fathom it, had me feelin' inadequate

Kinda got used to not having shit

It ain't nothing funny bout my past but I look back and I laugh at it

Car crash, I know this shit ain't happen by accident

The main character, now watch out for the antagonist

Long talks with God but still I'm the devil's advocate

Protection from myself, I had to go get a amulet

They all said, "Fuck me," but didn't know I was abstinent

Whippin' the Elantra, my momma had got evicted

Shit I was living with her right after I got convicted

That's probably why I adjust better than liquid

I make a exit to forget you existed, yeah, yeah

The load I had to carry had my back hurtin'

Shit, I barely made the cut like a black surgeon

And who I was on 59th, I ain't that version

A lot of shit under my belt like a fat person

That soft side of me ,I probably never show again

They picture dirty when I treat 'em like they only fans

I understand that there's a difference between now and then

I'm just in a reflection state, that's word to Lisa Vann

[Outro]

Amen

Shit, I was on live with Lisa earlier

And we was talkin' 'bout the reflection state, you know

So I just, reflect, I had to look at myself in the mirror, like

"Damn, you did it nigga"

Five years ago, you was on 59th & Bethany home

On the air mattress

Now you in your daughter's bed, like

Fuckin' writin' verses in a house in the Hills, it's crazy