premonition

Wonder what it is she wanted from me and I
Cannot keep my focus on anything I like
Let alone love, I can see you've had enough
I've been low enough, wonder why your never showing up

Know I don't got it in me to fucking start this again
Keep you at an arm's length, need to get as far away
From all this shit yea, I'd run if I can
My legs are breaking under me
Wanna feel again

Slowly start to realize I deserve this
And I can't hold you when those curtains close
Say goodbye but it feels like you rehearsed it
Stage lights burning, don't know what i'm nervous for

Your closing every door, shake me to my core
I got a feeling that your bored
Can't stop thinking my head sore
And I been here before, blood on the floor
It's not mine
Ask how i'm doing you know that i'm lying
Say i'm fine

I'm fine
Feel the blood dripping down your spine
Swear that i'm fine
Seeing you like salt in my wounds but i'm alright
Body on ice, you don't live twice

And I
Know your fucking lying when you say you don't care now
Hurts worse than you think
But still i'm feeling it out
It's been a minute since I really fuckin saw you
Wanna fuckin call you
But I know it's already done

Know I don't got it in me to fucking start this again
Keep you at an arm's length, need to get as far away
From all this shit yea, I'd run if I can
My legs are breaking under me
Wanna feel again

Slowly start to realize I deserve this
And I can't hold you when those curtains close
Say goodbye but it feels like you rehearsed it
Stage lights burning, don't know what i'm nervous for

Your closing every door, shake me to my core
I got a feeling that your bored
Can't stop thinking my head sore
And I been here before, blood on the floor
It's not mine
Ask how i'm doing you know that i'm lying
Say i'm fine

I'm fine
Feel the blood dripping down your spine
Swear that i'm fine
Seeing you like salt in my wounds but i'm alright
Body on ice, you don't live twice