Red Cap

[Verse 1]

Everything I've said until now is a lie

Know you like it but I'm sickly inside

They like to see you suffer, don't know why

'Cause it's getting harder for me not to cry

Never thought I'd have a panic attack

But now in the shower, I'm clenching my back

Dig my nails into it, blood dripping out

And my friends can't find my ass

How do you tell someone you love that you wanna choke on pills?

How do you force yourself to go on when you've got no self-will?

Wanna chain smoke a whole pack, they all tell me smoking kills

If it kills, then it probably will, 'cause my body is weak and I'm growing ill

[Bridge]

I'm losing it, I'm losing it

I'm losing it, I'm losing it

[Verse 2]

Imagine having someone there to wash your pain away

But I can't grasp that thought, that's not the life for me

I don't know how to love another person easily

I'm alone for now and I think that's the only way

I said a lot of things that I probably shouldn't say

I've let a lot of people down, so what's the price to pay?

I can't reference what I'm thinking, not my game to play

Running faster as the light that's in me starts to fade

Why live real life? I'll just stay here watching anime

Taking three pills even though they're only one a day

Put me in a coma so I can't communicate

And pull me down to hell 'cause heaven's just too far away

The wounds upon my body bleed 'til they disintegrate

But scars are left, I can't forget that this is not okay

And how it hurts the ones who love me and my family

If they saw me in this state, I don't know what they'd say