Apologies In Order

[Verse]

To my dearest next door with a heart even prettier than your eyes

And the baggage that I done added to them in recent times

I’m obliged to take my responsibilities in stride

Or my pride will be my obituary’s design

‘75 climbing through your window on the side

My disguise was knowing what I was put here to defy

Whole time, I’m staring at the rules the world afforded me

Paling in comparison to you and what you thought of me

My attention unfortunately

Wеnt from how you walk to how I can walk this quarter piece

Weed monеy’s cool ’til they cap and gown honored me

Grad school was powder work, green Jansport with $40,000 worth

Life comes at you fast when you’re bright enough to speed read

Ignored how I needed you, thinking that you needed me

Only child syndrome so I’m full of me

Loving on a brick replaced loving how you look at me

Then I saw what it took from me

First one through the door should always have a key

But I had 20 more in the trunk gift wrapped for me, it seemed like automatically

You became a mirror and I chose to stay away like “fuck all of this staring back at me”

Then you scurried away to a Maurice

Like you staring him down could wipe away how you saw me

Then you lit up a flame and it became how you support me

Serving you like a guest list, word to your mama necklace

I swear this throne became warmer than I projected

You rang the bell but let Wanda in unexpected

And I neglected to keep up with my protection, I was buried in my blessings

But ain’t a bag big enough to pay me out to take the time

To think that you’d be in the cross fire of this aim of mine

As sweet as your name, all the melodies that came alive

Drove you to lay me out to say goodbye

And so now essentially that handful of bullets you sent to me

Was back to back with the one that made your father a memory

Ironic ain’t it, he loaded his, he loaded yours like “if you got it, aim it”

A cop’s daughter ain’t one to play with

And there I was playing with you, hopping out windows

Driving out to Texas showed me just far a $10 goes

I started to bring a few in the trunk with me to Odessa

Where me visiting you could’ve funded me even better

But me in front of you was enough to lead me wherever

And I couldn’t make this more about me than it’s already been

Aspirations getting impatient and screaming let me in

Let me vent, I don’t do this much but just let me vent

Waving hi with all this blood on my hands, let me rinse

Leaning on what’s left of me to fix the mess that I made

Trusting in Tanosse’s, all this pussy on my plate, look at far that I came

I’m worth enough to put 100 thou’ ($100,000) on my frame

What more could I say?, you should be here with me

My child is on the way but yo you should be Veronique

Nothing got in the way but I used to be scared to dream, truthfully scared to sleep

To summarize it all, I was all at the the root of it

Whether or not I ever really knew the shit, so...

[Hook]

Apologies in order

If ain’t nothing else for us

No love lost ’til I lost love on the corner

No love lost ’til I lost love on the corner

No love lost ’til I