Five

I want to watch the universe expand
I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand
And put it all back together again
In the quiet of my private collection

It feels like an out-of-body experience
But something gets lost from a safe distance
Now I can't put my mind to rest
And I can't help but second guess
Living behind this one-way mirror

I'm hypnotized by this anomaly
Such strange uncharted territory
A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart
My armour falls apart
As if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known
Like I was already brave enough to let go

And now I want to generously lose this energy
That I've been hanging onto so desperately
I finally feel the universe expand
It's hidden in heartbeats
Exhales and in the hope of open hands