Own Devices

[Verse 1]

I got A&Rs in my DMs going loco

I used to buy bars but

I couldn't feel un poco

I do not have follow through

I did not take the photo

Didn't shake the hand

I did my best and

It was not enough, bozo

I cannot respond to good news (No!)

I don't open it like

Part of me is wanting to lose (Oh!)

I mean I own that shit

My real ID says Black Sheep too

Like label who like

Who would I even be

If I got better?

[Chorus]

No I never moved on

Everyone I dream about's from childhood

But I can't remember their face

Avatars online tell me to

Overdose on fentanyl

I'm sorry I missed your funeral

I did not have your strength

And I count myself among the dead

I was not supposed to make it here

I guess I didn't

I don't know what I am doing

But I'm at a ten

My whole body froze but the pen

And I let that bitch

(Wail, wail, wail, wail

Wail, wail, wail, wail)

[Verse 2]

All-time hater

All-time loser

All the time a beggar

Tryna play it like a chooser

Need the validation of

A few big institutions

So I can better complain

About them in great minutia

To like whoever will listen

I can't help it

I can't fix it

I need more extensive therapy

Than any career could fit in

Need intensive therapy

For my last therapist

Indifferent to everyone

To everything but the kick it's

Womp womp womp

Womp womp womp

Womp womp

If I take the time to feel

I know it won't let up

I get so angry

I get high so I don't erupt

I can't afford another

Trip to the hospital

(911 what's your emergency?)

I'm living in my head

I'm telling me to kill myself

I am already dead

I've lost every sensation

Don't remember what I said

I can't recall too much these days

I think it's for the best

[Chorus]

No I never moved on

Everyone I dream about's from childhood

But I can't remember their face

Avatars online tell me to

Overdose on fentanyl

I'm sorry I missed your funeral

I did not have your strength

And I count myself among the dead

I was not supposed to make it here

I guess I didn't

I don't know what I am doing

But I'm at a ten

My whole body froze but the pen

And I let that bitch

(Wail, wail, wail, wail

Wail, wail, wail, wail)

[Verse 3]

Tell 'em it's untouchable

I'm untouchable

I am the pocket

Like an uncrustable

I am the socket

Am the plug

Am highly combustible

I am the faucet

Am the rust

Am deeply uncomfortable

I get so overwhelmed

I'm so dysfunctional

It's unconscionable how I live now

It's so sick in the head

My whole body hurts with wanting

When I'm not in my bed

Left to my own devices

I will end up like dead

I think about you all the time

Wish I'd gone instead

[Chorus]

No I never moved on

Everyone I dream about's from childhood

But I can't remember their face

Avatars online tell me to

Overdose on fentanyl

I'm sorry I missed your funeral

I did not have your strength

And I count myself among the dead

I was not supposed to make it here

I guess I didn't

I don't know what I am doing

But I'm at a ten

My whole body froze but the pen

And I let that bitch