cycles

Spent years doing shit that I don't even like
And now I'm in an apartment, thinking I'll be fine
Dropped out, fucked up, it's a horrible cycle
Repetitively, it's like they're after me

And I don't even wanna be here
It's horrible, multiple times that I told you to leave
Why the fuck do you not listen to me
I'm trying to help you
I don't wanna feed off the shit that you're telling me, selling me
Shit that I don't want mom to see, go back in time like I'm Celebi
Back to the years where my happiness carried me through my depression

I'm leaving impressions on people I don't even know, I gotta go
Before it gets worse I don't want it to show
My insecurities they won't let me go
My brain is an awful place
I'm always scared, I don't ever wanna get replaced
It's on my mind constantly, running in circles
The constant anxiety's making me hurtful

And I don't even wanna be here
It's horrible, multiple times that I told you to leave
Why the fuck do you not listen to me
I'm trying to help you
I don't wanna feed off the shit that you're telling me, selling me
Shit that I don't want mom to see, go back in time like I'm Celebi
Back to the years where my happiness carried me through my depression

So fuck off I don't like the way you talk to me
You talk shit all the time so it's constantly
Not helping your point and not helping mine either
Fight fire with fire and hope that you beat her

Spent years doing shit that I don't even like
And now I'm in an apartment, thinking I'll be fine
Dropped out, fucked up, it's a horrible cycle
Repetitively, it's like they're after me