Push It Down

I don't wanna know what you think of me
I don't want you to think of me at all
And I don't want the grinding in my teeth
I don't want the tension in my jaw

'Cause I've been sleepin' with the light on, bleedin' 'til it's all gone
Nobody can tell me that I got it wrong
Walkin' with my shoes off, cryin' in my bathtub
Tryin' not to die but not tryin' hard enough

I've been trying to push it down
But sooner or later it all comes out
I can hold my breath and count
But sooner or later it all comes, all comes out

Well, nobody knows how bad it gets
Except for everyone I've ever met
Just waitin' on the day I grow out of it
Slammin' my head against my fists

'Cause I've been sleepin' with the light on, bleedin' 'til it's all gone
Nobody can tell me that I got it wrong
Walkin' with my shoes off 'til I get to your house
I could be alone but I'm scared of what I'll find out

I've been trying to push it down
But sooner or later it all comes out
I can hold my breath and count
But sooner or later it all comes, all comes out

'Cause I've been sleepin' with the light on, bleedin' 'til it's all gone
Nobody can tell me that I got it wrong
Try to talk to Jesus, I haven't heard a thing yet
Broke another mirror, but tell me who's counting?

I've been trying to push it down
But sooner or later it all comes out
I can hold my breath and count
But sooner or later it all comes, all comes out

It all comes out, comes out
It all comes out, comes out
It all comes out, comes out