Cold-blodded

Verse 1

I learned to disappear in daylight

Smile polite, keep my hands clean

You said I’m hard to read, well maybe

I change my colors when I’m seen

I crawl out when the heat feels safe now

Freeze when love looks back at me

I swear I’m trying to be brave but

Instinct keeps a hold on me

Pre-Chorus

You say, “Why do you run when it’s gentle?”

I say, “I don’t know how to stay”

I’ve been surviving on reflex

Not choosing, just getting away

Chorus

I’m cold-blooded, I know it

I warm up then I’m gone

I want you close but not too close

‘Cause closeness feels like a bomb

I hate how honest you make me

Hate how you see my fear

I’m not heartless, I’m just learning

How to live while someone’s here

Verse 2

I grew up reading every signal

Every shift in someone’s tone

Love was something I’d outrun

Before it ever felt like home

Now you’re standing in the kitchen

Talking ‘bout a year from now

And I’m nodding like I’m ready

While my pulse is freaking out

Pre-Chorus

You reach for my hand, I hesitate

Like it’s something I might drop

I want forever in theory

But practice is harder than talk

Chorus

I’m cold-blooded, I know it

I sun myself, then I hide

You say, “Baby, don’t you trust me?”

I say, “I’m still trying to try”

I hate how patient you are with me

Hate how you wait it out

I’m not running ‘cause I don’t love you

I just don’t know how

Bridge

Maybe I confuse survival

With being alone

Maybe I mistake control

For something I’m owed

If I stay still long enough

Maybe I’ll feel the heat

Maybe love won’t feel like

Something hunting me

(soft drop)

I don’t want to shed my skin again

I’m tired of starting new

If I bolt, please know it’s instinct

Not the truth

Final Chorus

I’m cold-blooded, I’ve been it

But I’m learning your warmth

I’m learning that safety

Doesn’t mean sounding alarms

If you’re willing to wait

While I learn how to stay

I might finally choose you

Instead of running away

Outro

I’m still scared, yeah it’s true

But tonight I’m scared with you