Looking Back

[Produced by J.U.S.T.I.C.E. League]

[Hook: CrushBoys]

All alone I stay in my room, waiting for something

Waiting for someone

To bring me out this misery I call home

But it's not there problem

I stare in the mirror

I'm looking back

I'm looking back, I'm looking back

[Verse 1]

Sitting in this room, playing on my Nintendo

Stomach rumbling cuz my mother's family been broke

She left me with my grandma, she's schizophrenic and mental

And she smoked three packs, and she ain't open up the window

Struggling with asthma, one room apartment

Room full of smoke while grandma talked to the wall

And she would scream at the air

So everybody laughed, but I held her by the hand cuz she was all that I had

And this was Lawrence, Mass

My toilet seat filled with napkins

Cuz it's only one bathroom to share with the crackheads

Holes in the mattress, my clothes is disastrous

Hallway smelling like crack and burnt plastic

Even though this the past, the memories still vivid

Getting kicked out of school and getting whipped in the kitchen

And none of this is fiction, different or false written

Just the autobiography of a man on a mission

[Hook]

[Verse 2]

Thinking back to 9 years old, I can remember

Flashbacks of this pimp O, beating my Aunt Heather

Jeans in a small sweater, she would creep thru the hall fed up

Looking to smoke a rock so she could feel all better

Now I'm all grown and more hungry than ever

More humble and cleaver

It's all coming together

Been thru the storm weather

Consistent by all measures, but sick of this small cheddar

I'm here for the lost treasure

Tryna stay on my grind while praying all of the time

Each day I'm making a climb but taking it as a sign

Your only given one life, make it something divine

Have faith & take the design of satan out of ya mind

Snakes and fake friends, know how to hate & pretent

Thats why I got me some plans

To save up hundreds of bands

Buy me some properties, some businesses and some land

And bust it down to my fam

I hustle hard as I can

[Hook]