Conversations

(It's me against myself)
(It's me against myself)

Jyl, why you actin' like we never met?
You know well I've been tellin' you what to do in your head
Thinkin' you can use me to push you to your goals
Then throw me out 'til you're pathetically crawlin' back again
No, you can't get rid of me, this is how it begins
Call me your worst enemy, but I'm your best friend
I'm the only one that's really known where you been
What you're doin' and where you're goin'
Would you really want this to end?

I don't know, it depends
I really don't want you anymore
But in my defense
You cause a lot of pain and existential sufferin'
You make me overanalyze myself and make me feel I'm better off dead
Whoa, I just really want the best for you
Present the truth, so what you gonna do?
Call me out, now you don't got the guts to pull through
You know I know you better than you know you

Shut up, don't laugh when I'm talkin'
I'm honestly tired of all of your mockin'
My mind's on the up and up, and I don't need you for once
Think I can take the next leap without bein' shoved
Now I got some questions
How come you told me that I'd never fit in?
Said I gotta give up 'cause you would always win
But you better think before you double-cross me
You've been sloppy up to the edge

All this time I put my trust in you
You made my mind a prison now it's time to prosecute
You thought I'd never escape this pain
That you were pullin' me under
Thought you'd cut so deep I would never recover

Shh, quit actin' like I'm the villain
'Cause you ain't no saint, don't you get it?
I'm helpin', I had to push you to break
So you could be great
'Cause true worth comes from real pain
But it's okay, I can wait
I'm the one you should thank

Feels like it's me against myself
Am I the villain or the victim now?
I can't scream to call for help
'Cause I don't know how
It's a lonely bout
Me against myself

Why you think you gotta beat up or drive?
It's the pain and the passion makin' you come alive
There's no dark without light, no peace without fight
No you without me, why would I lie?
You're dead without my energy
And look, you got people watchin' you now
You kept it in all this time
'Cause you thought sellable meant sellin' out
You know everyone's so quick to be the judge and the jury
The world ain't used to a girl expressin' your kind of fury

All this time you were hidin'
Nothin' 'cause emotions on your sleeve show brightly
Look at what you want and not what you need
How'd you like a life with no privacy?
Hmm, I guess we'll see
Geeze, I find it ironic how this world could be so mean
Respect to the fallin' who never got a chance to breathe
I just wanna be seen and hear that someone heard me
I'm stuck with critical you, and you ain't got no mercy

Tell me why I should listen when no one's listened to me?
Yeah, I'm angsty and spiteful, what would you think?
When it's been buildin' up over the years
I be smarter than I put out to believe
But then I tear myself down just to fit into society's box
I thought I needed the keys 'til I kept breakin' the locks
Now I get it
Label me the problem 'cause I just don't fit in
I'm fed up with this dissonance so good riddance

As long as I'm alive with a pulse and a pen
I'll never stop writin' when I'm feelin' on the edge
The bends have been straightened, not a dead end
Children, no subtext, I'll be the voice who understands

Feels like it's me against myself (like me against myself)
Am I the villain or the victim, now? (Am I the villain or the victim now)
I can't scream to call for help
'Cause I don't know how (don't know how)
It's a lonely bout
Me against myself (like me against myself)

Myself, myself
No, I can't call for help (whoa)
It's lonely bout
Me against myself