Apologize

I only ache
In the wake
Of a broken never
There is no thrill
In the crime
I have lost the pleasure
Skin on skin means nothing
If there is no blood to bleed
Simply quenching hunger
Doesn't kill the need
Hands always move
On their own
Self-inflicted torture
Feel, imitate
Stimulate
Futuristic horrors
Basking in the glory
Of our manufactured vice
Fade away to nothing
'Cause now nothing will suffice
I don't mean to make you nervous
I've been sad, but not depressed
Wasting breath waiting for nothing
'Cause you won't apologize
Apologize
Clean the mess that you made
Own up to the blame
At the end of the day
So easy to say
It's not your fault now
It's not your fault now
Apologize
Nails on my skin
Just to check
If my heart's still beating
Head in my hands
Only I
Hear the quiet screaming
Shaking turns to crying
In my short-lived fake delight
The bitterness of trying
Haunts me through the night
And I don't mean to make you nervous
I've been sad, but not depressed
Lately, I've been feeling something
When I'm high up on my meds
I'm smiling at a screen
Wearing a name that's not my own
It's only in these moments
When you truly feel alone
Apologize
(Apologize)
Apologize
Clean the mess that you made
Own up to the blame
At the end of the day
So easy to say
It's not your fault now
It's not your fault now
A name on a screen
Means nothing to me
Hypnotic machine
Your hands are clean
It's not your fault now
It's not your fault now
Apologize
Clean the mess that you made
Own up to the blame
At the end of the day
So easy to say
It's not your fault now
It's not your fault now