Shoppers Beef

“You cannot defeat the darkness, you can only be the light” fuck that

At the core of night, I couldn’t imagine anything I’d like less than to be the light

And in this I mean literal darkness, literal light and literal night

Why would I want to?

I liked you like I like the dark

In it, I feel my body in a different way

Because like when my body was with yours

In the dark, my body doesn’t end at my finger tips

Instead bleeding out into a space I can’t calculate the mass of but that I know is massive

I am a giant in these spaces

I am more than a giant

I am limitless

We are limitless

Darkness is an infinite container

I am a gas seeking to fill its volume or dissipate to harmlessness within it

Let myself be absorbed into something I am also an agent of until it and I are both malleable

Next, darkness is the backseat of my dead best friend’s sister’s car

And every potentially stubbed toe or missed step on the staircase

Are the bobbing headlights that haunt your parent’s neighborhood

Coming into focus through the fog

Slowly bouncing towards us like specters while we lay silently in cover

Save for the percussion of our hearts and the exuberance of our lungs

And every soft carpet fiber

Every safely navigated hallway taking me deeper into dark is your charged touch sending jolts of current waltzing through my muscles

Is your breathy way of saying my name

After the hallway I stumble to my bed, isn’t this exciting?

Feeling out into a comfortable unknown

I can float out into the dark until I've reached land again

If there’s land to be had

If there isn’t, that’s fine

I feel safer now floating out into the precipice

I liked you like I like the dark, why would I aim to defeat it?