Dry Heave

I wanna live forever! is that too much to ask
Enough dry heaving in the mirror and fogging up the glass
I wanna like the way I look without an ugly t-shirt
But I'm afraid that if I like my clothes I'll hate what's underneath
What if I'll never be the person that I
Swore I'd give my everything to be
Forever dumb and awkward skinny lonely
Wasting time and drowning in my dreams
I missed my lunch already, why not skip dinner too caught up
On tiger lilies dying, dying in their bloom
You said forever's just a feeling like all things too will pass and
I'll waste a lifetime honey trying to make it last
Maybe I'll never be the person that I
Swore I'd give my everything to be
Forever dumb and awkward skinny lonely
Wasting time and drowning in my dreams