Future Me

Here I am future me
On the corner of 5th and Berkeley
Glorified canvas socks and this shredded jean jacket
The corners that I end up on by accident

Between the leaves and sky I see negative space
When I followed some directions past your old place
Like a friend you can't forgive but then forgot
Your house is on Your Neighborhood's Next Top Parking Lot

When I leave you'll never notice it
But I relive those years like phantom limbs
Your indecision, a lack of empathy
I should've left, I should've settled for lonely

Every slow familiar soundtrack brings me here
To the ghost I haven't spoken to in years
My nerves were slowly stretching out the sleeves of every sweater
Rekindling old habits, knowing better

When I leave you'll never notice it
But I relive those years like phantom limbs
Your indecision, a lack of empathy
I should've left, I should've settled for lonely

Dark nostalgia and the tapes I haven't played
Since that deck broke in my old room
At the house you never went to