You in June

On the first day, felt a little shake in my step A little anxiety that overlapped The birds sang slightly out of tune But I started to let go of you On the second week, started reaching out to my mom Reassurance that I did not do anything wrong Still heard the birds in the afternoon And I started to forget about you And I am no longer designed for any other That soaks up every scrap of my goodwill and heart attacks And I've been embarrassed of my role in codependence But I've finally had my fill, I'm better off just keeping still No tipping over, water line's getting lower Something tells me that it wouldn't make a difference If you loved me or if this was just common sense If you hate me then I'll understand the consequence On the second month, I walked around my block The Ivy on the houses grew and seemed to have never stopped Got a cup of coffee where we were just last June And I started to think about you But there's no real bad feelings, just a changing of the seasons Ever since that day in June I've been in my own cocoon But there's no forward stages, just liminal spaces It's not just that, I know, but it's worth mentioning to show How much I wish everything was different On the first day, felt a little shake in my step Tripped over a loose stone on a pavement Patched myself up and went on with my afternoon And I started to forgive you