You in June

On the first day, felt a little shake in my step
A little anxiety that overlapped
The birds sang slightly out of tune
But I started to let go of you

On the second week, started reaching out to my mom
Reassurance that I did not do anything wrong
Still heard the birds in the afternoon
And I started to forget about you

And I am no longer designed for any other
That soaks up every scrap of my goodwill and heart attacks
And I've been embarrassed of my role in codependence
But I've finally had my fill, I'm better off just keeping still
No tipping over, water line's getting lower

Something tells me that it wouldn't make a difference
If you loved me or if this was just common sense
If you hate me then I'll understand the consequence

On the second month, I walked around my block
The Ivy on the houses grew and seemed to have never stopped
Got a cup of coffee where we were just last June
And I started to think about you

But there's no real bad feelings, just a changing of the seasons
Ever since that day in June I've been in my own cocoon
But there's no forward stages, just liminal spaces
It's not just that, I know, but it's worth mentioning to show
How much I wish everything was different

On the first day, felt a little shake in my step
Tripped over a loose stone on a pavement
Patched myself up and went on with my afternoon
And I started to forgive you